I've spent most of my life believing that Christianity is something you do. That in order to please God you have to be good enough. You have to follow the rules and meet with God every day in a certain way. And for years, that's what I did. I paid attention to what other mature Christians were doing and I followed their example. My dad used a reading plan and read three chapters in the Bible every morning before work. One of my pastors spent a season fasting every Tuesday. Fellow church members stood and their lifted hands during worship. I did everything I was shown and told to do. But these last several years those habits and disciplines I had developed started feeling like a burden. Anxiety started bullying my time with the Lord because what if I didn't ...