I’ve been living as God’s slave instead of his child–just looking at my most recent history and habits that much is clear. I read my Bible for fear of missing some truth or direction God wants to give me. I go to church because that’s what good Christians do even when I am exhausted and what I really need is a day to just be alone and not do anything scheduled. I volunteer and fill my schedule with ministry opportunities because I feel like that’s what I’m supposed do. I’ve gone on mission trips, not because I felt called but because I thought I should.
My brain was running like a hamster hyped up on caffeine, my stomach knotting up tight as I wrestled over this decision I had to make. If I said yes, it was going to require my time and quite a chunk of change. And if I said no I might miss out on an opportunity … Read more
**Some of the links below are affiliate links, meaning, at no additional cost to you, I will earn a commission if you click through and make a purchase.** Rachelle Dekker wrote in her Seer Series* that life is a series of forgetting and remembering. Lately, I’ve been doing a lot of forgetting. I could blame … Read more
She had been bleeding for twelve years. No doctors could help her and no amount of money, medicine, or medical attention had been able to fix her disorder. She was at the end of her rope, grasping for anything that had even the slightest chance to heal her. Perhaps it was a normal day when … Read more
I was sitting at a stoplight, waiting to turn. I was in a mood, discontent, frustrated over why God is taking so long with things, and feeling like a failure for not being more patient and having more faith. God, I wish you would just slap me. That’s what I deserve. You’re too nice and … Read more
Well, it happened. I graduated. All day the emotions have been coming in waves. I battled fear today. I walked across a stage (tripped ever so slightly, but not enough for anyone to notice) and celebrated the completion of a degree. I said goodbye in a hurried way to friends I no longer live down … Read more