Just a couple of weeks ago I was talking through some things with God. We were having a sort of DTR, and he told me something that caught me off guard: “Jazmin, I need you to stop determining how I pursue you and let me relate with you on my terms.” For most of my … Read more
It’s like a buzzing, this low grade anxiety that keeps my muscles tight and my brain spinning. My jaw tenses and sets slightly to the right, teeth clenched as the message that’s played through my brain for most of my life plays once again. You’re just not doing enough. You can do better. So I … Read more
I’ve been on this kick lately of exploring what it means to not only be a child of God, but how to live freely like one. It’s something we don’t talk about directly much. Those of us who have been in the church for a while have heard that phrase tossed around. Child of God. … Read more
I’ve been living as God’s slave instead of his child–just looking at my most recent history and habits that much is clear. I read my Bible for fear of missing some truth or direction God wants to give me. I go to church because that’s what good Christians do even when I am exhausted and what I really need is a day to just be alone and not do anything scheduled. I volunteer and fill my schedule with ministry opportunities because I feel like that’s what I’m supposed do. I’ve gone on mission trips, not because I felt called but because I thought I should.
**Some of the links below are affiliate links*, meaning, at no additional cost to you, I will earn a commission if you click through and make a purchase. Read my full disclosure here.** I used to think that there was a “right way” to spend time with the Lord. I was convinced that I had … Read more
This world can be pretty overwhelming sometimes, can’t it? Just spend a few minutes watching the news and you’ll find more than enough material to fill your prayer time. But can I be honest with you about something? With so much going on, not only in the world, but also in my personal life and … Read more
Fugitive. The word glared at me, an accurate definition of how I’d been living my life for, well…all my life. I’d lived in a world wrapped up in Fear’s clutches and the need to do it all right. And when I didn’t, Shame told me I was no good. Doubt stepped in and made me … Read more
My brain was running like a hamster hyped up on caffeine, my stomach knotting up tight as I wrestled over this decision I had to make. If I said yes, it was going to require my time and quite a chunk of change. And if I said no I might miss out on an opportunity … Read more
God’s hand is at work. Always. And often behind the scenes. So often I doubt God’s ability to work out His will in my life. I doubt my ability to hear Him. I was doing that this morning. Telling God once again that the dreams on my heart are impossible and we might as well … Read more
When you hear the word freedom, what do you think of? For me, I think of slavery. There was a time for the nation of Israel when they were held in bondage in Egypt. After the time of Joseph, the Hebrew who ruled as second in command in Egypt, the Hebrew people became too numerous; … Read more