I know you’re just trying to help. In the season of life right now, where college is over and done and I’m settled in a job, the next obvious thing is marriage. I know your questions about whether or not I’ve met any nice guys yet, and suggestions about available young men come from a sincere desire to help me, but in truth, it’s not really helping at all.
Years ago I surrendered to God the pen to write my love story. I asked Him to bring me the right guy when it was time. Even as a teenager when most people are starting to get into the dating scene, I looked around and told Him I wanted more. I wanted more than shallow relationships that last for a short while before you move on to the next person. I wanted more than weekend flings. I wanted more than fun dates and hard break-ups. In truth, I asked God to give me a different relationship, a better relationship–the kind of relationship people write stories about and tell to their grandchildren because it’s just so gosh-darn good.
So all these years I’ve been waiting for Him to do it.
And I know. It sounds crazy. It’s definitely counter-cultural. And no, I’m not being lazy. I have put my trust in my Father to arrange something for me. I have placed my heart in His hands and asked Him to shape me into the woman He’s created me to be. It hasn’t been an easy process. There have been many times when I’m all but ready to give up on the waiting because it’s just taking too long and I’ve felt overlooked, and all I want is someone to look into my eyes and call me beautiful.
But each time I think about calling it quits and figuring this relationship thing out on my own, I think back to my teenage heart crying out to God for something more. I think about all the ways these years of being single have shaped me into who I am today. And I can’t help but smile because, despite the hard waiting, I truly believe God has something amazing in store. I truly believe He is going to honor my heart’s desire because He’s the one who placed it there in the first place.
I know you mean well in asking about my love life. But in all honesty, it only makes the waiting harder. I know you want to see me happy, and truthfully I am. I’m seeing God do amazing things and I’m finding contentment right where I am.
You want to know what you can do, though?
You can pray. Pray for God to bring about that relationship in His timing. Pray for my heart to be continually set on Jesus. Pray for my future husband, that he would continue to grow in the Lord and hear His voice; that the relationship between him and Jesus would completely define who he is.
And respect my decision to wait.
Trust me as I trust the Lord. Trust me when I say that I believe He has good plans for me and He is the best match-maker I’ve ever known. Trust me that this season of being on my own and growing solo-mio is needed. I’m learning who I am. I’m learning who Jesus is, and He’s teaching me what it means to be pursued. This is not an act of laziness or fear. I’m not wasting my time. I’m doing the very best thing I can think to do in this season, and that’s leaning into Jesus.
I assure you, when I meet that special someone, you will know all about it. I’ve been waiting this long, and by golly I won’t be able to keep my mouth shut when it finally happens. Help me embrace contentment in this season I’m in by asking me about what’s going on right now—how my job is, what the Lord is teaching me, where I feel Him growing me. Ask me how the pursuit of my dreams is going right now.
Live in His love!
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